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[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

phone beeps were in the miller book, then a short section on booby traps.
my understanding would be that booby traps are what i (and i suspect the ti
groups) mostly engage. (big mistake?)

some concern that i had childhood experiences a little like some of these
programs (suicide trigger for example?) which could confuse my much more
extreme and relevant adult experience which the book author sadly does not
believe in.

i have no idea how i could have been mind controlled as a child, my family
was solitary, kind, and overprotective. my father did have experience with
hypnosis and such that i only learned of late in his life, maybe he
switched and influenced me, dunno. my influences felt more feminine imo. it
was a single mostly daydream-oriented thing with amnesia afterward where i
could kind of engage subconscious intellect briefly if i chose.

sad to share these important and delicate things in unknown company. my
childhood was fine and wonderful. i need help with my adult trauma.
but either way, i don’t really know or remember why i have experiences that
roughly match programs in this book.

i guess i’m thinking about how, as an adult, i or something learned to
stimulate sudden and other behaviors in me, and this engaged of course my
existing experiences and the habits built by those maybe as some of the
means
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