[ot] monologues bemoaning spamming the cypherpunks list

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

cypherpunks list,

i am sorry for bombing you with tiny emails.

i am not sorry in the way that i expect it to stop soon.

but i am sorry in the way where i experience worry or sadness around it.

--

in my life, i've mentioned this on-list, my new behaviors have harmed
people and things that i care about.

it's an interesting space, to --